its the face. its not just the beauty. its the purity and goodness and the humbleness. it was burnt. it was burnt, his blood had flown his bones mustve have been broken. such goodness. it was burnt to beyond recognition. when u see him in interviews; u see he is not meant for this world because he was so good. there is no closure no explanation to why such angel like such goodness was just burnt, smashed, mutilated. to be left in tht car. the horror of those 60 seconds. impact trauma. unable to get out. nothing is here to blame, no speeding no nothing. to be burst in flames. this is the face of martyrdom, true martyrdom. at this point i could care least about how people are dieing in the middle east. i dont care about those ppl dead in the chemical warfare in syria. i dont care about anything. i dont care about ppl suffering in africa. i care about nothing. and i will not care about nothing. to see such goodness snatched away from the world.ya i havent watched and have never watched a single movie of his. when fast furious came out in 2001 i was like , well i hate hate cars and racing, just not my thing so boring. there is no closure right now. to us who believe in God and afterlife are very few. we are all grieving but when ppl die , souls exist, they still exist, its not like they become completely non-existent. so we are all grieving but just imagine what he mustve gone thru.and must be going thru.. to lose meadow,vin diesel, caleb,cody, fast n furious , his life. it seems so unfair. atleast he is with roger. those ppl who say he had the good life, its still unfair. its all unfair. but he was a christian not a mormon. i like mormons alot.they r very nice people. but God is not made of flesh and bones. He is God Almighty . He is unimaginably Divine the most powerful most high. Jesus and Devil are not brothers. Joseph Smith was a 3rd degree freemason. hello?? knock knock. but alot of ppl dont know this stuff and its ok. but i dont want to digress i jus want to talk about Walker. im not embarrassed if im grieving for him and tht i didnt really know him, because my friends are grief stricken too and so is the rest of the world. theres something so unfair about this. and we are all in an inconsolable state, not jut vin diesel. i just hope, i dont want to sound demented, but its ok to be demented, its normal right now. i wish tht his daughter dies too. in a peaceful way. she will be with him. really she will. she should devot her life to dad. she will never find anyone like him. and imagine where ever he is he knows he not gonna see her, for another like what 40 years or wat...wow.. this is so much tragedy. i wanna stop writing. because its not gonna help. but what helped me is to see tht cody and caleb r just like him.as kind as him. sweet and caring. but i, myself, have suffered the trauma of seeing the videos of his car accident. its too damn hard. too damn hard. then u look at his face.not his beauty. but his goodness. burnt and ruthlessly taken away from this world. its not fair.
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